i often wonder how i get through every day with the thoughts i have. i constantly wonder stupid little things like; who my husband talks to on the computer, what he looks at all the time, hows my baby growing, is she growing well? is she eating enough? or things that generally freak me out like dead things or scary scenarios that play in my head of hauntings or rape or murder. all very bad things, all things i hope never happen in my life.
i feel that i have become more paranoid and scared of the world, like its out to get me now. i fear for my daughter, i want her to be safe. i fear for my husband, i never want to lose him.
my mind is